Limiting Beliefs

Limiting beliefs.... we all have them.Where do they come from and how do we move past them? I often wish there was an answer for that. I struggle with this myself and some days I feel like i just need to scream F&CK OFF to that voice in my head that tells me i am not good enough, i am not worthy enough,  i am not deserving enough..... you know... all those "You are not enough" stories that play over and over again in our heads. You ARE enough!

I know where mine come from. They come from my childhood. Lets get real, open and vulnerable here for a moment. Some of you may know this but most of you probably dont. I loved my Dad with all my heart. But I also hated my Dad. He used his words and his fists to make a point. I was afraid of him. I trusted him. I believed every word he said to me. My Dad was an amazing man with a big heart but he just didn't know how to show it. He didn't know how to show real love. I believe now that it made him uncomfortable. And guess what, it came from HIS limiting beliefs. I wish he was still alive so I could ask him what those beliefs were. I lost him right at the time when we were really starting to get along, starting to understand each other and starting to heal from our mistakes. 

If I think back to when I was younger, still a child, maybe 8 or 9 years old, i can hear that tape play over and over in my head. "You will never amount to anything". Imagine telling a child this. More than once. Alot actually. You begin to believe this. If someone who loves you, helped bring you into this world and knows you better than anyone, is saying this to you, then it must be true. Right? Wrong! With things that I have learned only recently, in fact, I know that my Dad didnt mean that, or anything else negative that he would say or do to me. He was hurting from things he wasnt able to share. Or maybe he didnt even really know why himself. And so I forgive him. 

Only a few days before he died - he didnt know he was going to die which is the bizarre thing - he took me in his arms and cried. I rarely saw him cry. He said, "Susie, i know I was hard on you and your sister, more than I ever should have been and you both didnt deserve it. I will do my best to make it up to you with Taylor, to treat her the way I should have treated you, To love her and encourage her and fix all my mistakes that I made with you." 3 days later he was gone. 

I have lived many many years believing these things that were instilled into my brain, they are my subconscious that tells me I cant do something, that I am too fat, I am not pretty enough,I am not a good mother, daughter, wife, friend, leader, or business person. But the truth is, your brain doesnt know the difference between the truth and a lie so start being honest with your brain and yourself. You are amazing, and worth it, deserving and enough, you are inspiring and awesome and that is all that matters. Stop saying you cant afford it, cant do it, cant have it because then it will be true.

Do you worry what other people think of you? Well... STOP IT!! Stop it right now. People will think of you however they want, they will judge your decisions and talk behind your back, no matter how nice you are. And guess what? That is their shit, not yours so dont take that on.

Did you have a rough childhood?  An abusive relationship? A bad friend or family member who always put you down? None of those situations should ever define you. You are not those situations. You are you and you are ENOUGH! Good bye to those limiting beliefs.

Week 1 of a Better Me

 Monday, Jan 4 - Today was day 1 of treating myself better and I cant believe all the emotions that came with it....
I was excited and nervous to get back at working out that i barely slept last night! 20 minutes into TRX class, there was an inner war going on in my body!
My body said WTF are you doing to me and it wanted to throw up twice. I had to take breaks and felt like everyone was thinking, "or course she has to take a break, look at her size!".... My mind said, this is way too hard and  you are too fat. Stop this at once and get back into your comfort zone immediately! My eyes told me, from looking around, that i was the biggest one there and the mirror told me that i was bigger than i realized.... My heart said, just keep going. It will be easier. So here i sit in my car, bawling my eyes out, thinking...... ill be back tomorrow. Just dont quit!

Tuesday, Jan 5 - Today was easier.... just a tiny bit easier.... Strong Fit Fast Class - i really enjoyed it. I took less breaks and did lots of modifications and only wanted to throw up once. I looked down at the floor alot because when i looked straight ahead, there is a mirror there and i begin to pick myself apart. I swear i have body dis-morphia because i think im smaller than i appear to be in that mirror. The mirror is a bitch! I look forward to the day when my my arms dont look like a smaller version of my thighs coming out of my shoulders... sigh.... 

Wednesday, Jan 6 - Day 3 - Spin Class.... need i say more. I forgot how much that damn seat hurts my ass, and considering its already sore from yesterdays Strong Fit Fat class, its like a double whammy of pain. I was praying for the next time we could stand on the bike to give my butt some well deserved relief. I am definitely going to bring my padded seat from my bike at home for the next class. Oy!! 

Thursday, Jan 7 - Day 4 - I had made a personal goal of working out at least 3 xs per week and today was my 4th day in a row. My arms are still sore from Monday TRX... i cant straighten them out and it hurts to wash my hair. When i sit down, i feel pain from where i was violated by that spin bike seat and thank the Universe that there isnt a spin class 2 days in a row. I made it thru Strong Fit Circuit today without wanting to throw up at all, altho i got out of breathe a few times and remembered how much i hate jumping.... But other than that, it was a great week. Measured myself when i got home so i can keep track of my inches lost because my body loses lbs at a snails pace and i dont want to get discouraged by what the scale tells me... she is a lying bitch anyways.... im sure of it. Did i also mention 7 days with no alcohol or wheat too? Its been a good week, altho very emotional. I have done alot of crying and beating myself up for letting myself get where i am today but its all about taking one day at a time. The only thing missing is a workout buddy - that would make the experience a little less daunting if i could do it with someone else..... anyone up for the challenge? 

Punch Fear in the Face

On the eve of the day that I have vowed to get back to taking care of myself, my first day back to the gym in the am,  i sit here trying to talk myself out of it. Not because i dont want to do it, but because of the fear, the little voice in my head telling me that I will fail, that i cant do it, that i will be the biggest one in the class, that everyone will make fun of me..... How ridiculous is that?! The gym is my least favourite place to be. Not because I dont like working out, because i actually do like it....Just not in a crowd of people. I prefer to be in my basement home gym, where noone is around to see my rolls, my flaws, all the things i dont like about myself.... But like I have always said, nothing magical ever happens inside your comfort zone. So my gym bag is packed and im ready to go!!

What is it about us, as humans, that make us want to stay in our bubble, where things are easy, whether it serves us or not? Not just working out but everything in life! We want to lose weight but are scared to take the first step to get healthy. We hate our jobs but are scared to make a change and find something that we love to do. We are in toxic relationships but continue to stay in them for whatever reason. We have friends who dont have our best interests at heart but still give them our energy.... I speak from experience when i say life is short and tomorrow is not guaranteed so do what you love, take that step to a healthier you and find that person who treats you the way you deserve to be treated. 

I just saw this quote from Les Brown and I think its fitting..... 

You have the power to heal your life...to bounce back from failure...to get another job...to open and own your business....to get out of debt...to create a new path for yourself...to stretch beyond what is safe, familiar and comfortable.

You have the power within you...to do more, love more, live more expansively and to learn much more than you do now. Believe and know that you have the power!! You have GREATNESS within you!

January4th is THE day......
2015 was a good year for the most part..... Good times and some struggles... And lots of self sabotage and bad choices.... It's now time to smarten up and fix myself..... Inside and out! 
I won't be drinking alcohol for the month..... To start.... 
I'm going to the gym 3 days a week, at least!
I will be cutting out wheat from my diet as it wreaks havoc on my body.
I will no longer listen to complaining, negativity and gossip. Only positive, I CAN attitudes for me. I can no longer allow that low vibration into my world. (A few mins of venting is ok)😊
I will learn to accept compliments.
I will stop caring what others think of me. What my close friends and family think is all that really matters....
I will live in gratitude.
I will live in love not fear.
I will step outside my comfort zone more as I lose weight and get my confidence back. This year has seen me do alot of that already - speaking in front of rooms full of people and i intend to do even more of that this year - with confidence!
I will work on loving myself.
I will go for coffee with a friend, new or old, at least once a month.
I will not be attached to the outcome and will live in the moment.

What do you vow to do in 2016? I would love to hear your goals and help keep you accountable, if needed. 

Whenever i think i cant do it, i will listen to this song!      https://youtu.be/xo1VInw-SKc❤   

Own Your Life

I think its sad to see people sit on the sidelines of their life - just watching it pass by until its too late to do anything. Accepting less than they deserve - being treated poorly by their loved ones - not taking risks and accepting defeat. Thinking that the every day struggle is normal and that they will never have anything better in their life. That some how they deserve this fate. It breaks my heart. 

People in jobs that they hate - getting up every morning dreading the day - trading time for money - spending most of their waking hours with people they either dont really like or people who also dont want to be there which makes for a very negative environment. Counting down to the weekend and  cramming everything they possibly can before Monday morning comes around again. People who work so hard and stretch themselves so thin that they become stressed and sick because they believe that this is what they have to do help their families. I know all to well that a lifetime is not guaranteed and that your life can end in an instant. But when offered a gift to change this, they simply say they arent interested for fear they cant do it, or the assumption of what it is they are being offered, or the fear of what others will think of them.  WHO CARES what others think!! We were not put on this earth to struggle but so many people accept that this is their fate and make no steps to change it. 

People in toxic marriages. Now i dont mean marriages where there is just regular fighting and tough days because lets face it, everyone goes thru that. Im talking about loveless, abusive, controlling marriages where one partner is being abused. It doesnt have to be physically, mentally is just as bad, if not worse, in my mind. I have been in a mentally abusive relationship and its harder to see the damage that is being done to someone who is watching from the outside. I have friends who are in relationships like this and it breaks my heart to know they either feel like this is normal and acceptable or worse, believe the things they are being told. To be controlled by someone that says they love you is not love, its simply that.... Control. To watch someone you love have their sparkle dim because they finally start believing the lies they are told day in and day out. Heart breaking, dont you think?

I am currently in a mastermind group and we are reading the book, Think and Grow Rich and after only getting thru the first 3 chapters, there are some powerful quotes i would like to share that really resonated with me. 

1 - Success comes to those who become success conscious. Failure comes to those who indifferently allow themselves to become failure conscious.

2 - If you do not see great riches in your imagination, you will never see them in your bank balance.

3 - If the thing you wish to do is right, and you believe in it, go ahead and do it! Put your dream across, and never mind what "they" say if you meet with temporary defeat, for "they", perhaps do not know that every failure brings with it the seed of an equivalent success.

4 - A BURNING DESIRE to be and to do is the starting point from which the dreamer must take off. Dreams are not born of indifference, laziness or lack of ambition.

5 - Our only limitations are the those we set up in our own minds!

6 - It is a well known fact that one comes, finally, to BELIEVE whatever one repeats to ones self, whether the statement be true of false.


Stop being scared to take a risk, to step out of your comfort zone, to do what you love instead of spend your days doing what you dont love. Believe you are worthy and deserving of everything your heart desires and then go do whatever you need to do to make that happen. Dont listen to people that tell you that you cant. There is something in them that wants to keep you down so that they feel better about themselves. Go do everything you have ever wanted and dreamed of and dont let anyone tell you otherwise. It is so sad to see so many simply settle for what is and never believe that they could have more. It is not selfish to want more in your life. 

If you didnt ever have to worry about money..... what would you be doing, where would you be doing it and who would you be doing it with? I guarantee you that you would not say " i would be at work"! Go get all that you deserve in this life!!! I believe in you, now believe in yourself!!! <3

You are in Charge of your Own Story

Have you ever wondered why things never go your way? Why you never have enough money or that you always have bad luck? Think for a minute about the words that you use throughout the day... Are you concentrating on everything you dont have or dont want, or are you thinking about the things you do have or desire? 

So many people are talking more about what they dont want than what they do want. When was it ok for us, as adults to stop dreaming? As children, we had such a vivid imagination and dreamed big! We would dream about the car we wanted to have, what it looked like, what color it was going to be and so on. Maybe a little girl would imagine her fairy tale wedding right down to the last detail and any adult would say, you can have whatever you put your mind to.... But as we become adults and we share the same dreams with other adults, you get comments like "oh, good luck with that", "keep dreaming", or "that will never happen"... why is it that people think its ok to crush other peoples dreams simply because those dream crushers don't know how to dream anymore? Would you say that to a child?

I just got home from my company conference in Las Vegas and I walked away from that with lots of notes and some AHA moments and i would like to share some of those here. Not only will this be helpful for our team, but i can only hope that something will connect with YOU out there too and perhaps encourage you to reach for your dreams too! Dont let anyone tell you that you cant achieve your dreams, because you absolutely can! 

Every single Diamond who gave their speech this past weekend said the exact same thing when they started - they didn't have belief in themselves, in that they could not do this business, they were too shy, too busy, too this and to that. Those are all excuses to not step out of your comfort zone. The #1 reason why people arent open to hearing about other opportunities is because they are afraid that they cant do it, that they will fail but its simply not true. Anyone can do anything if they just believe. 

If you don't open your dream box, no one else will open it for you. No one in the world is better than you are. You are special and unique. Never compare  yourself with anyone else. Find the reason why you are here. 

We have the key to happiness and we can change someones life forever with this gift. If you don't find the reason why you are here, you wont be able to move forward. 

Ask yourself - What do you want to achieve in your life? What are you willing to sacrifice to do that? What are you going to do? If you knew you could NOT fail, would you do it?

In a perfect world, what would your life look like? If money wasn't an issue, If you could do anything, with anyone, anywhere in the world, what would you be doing? I can guarantee you wouldn't say you would be at work.

Think about your life right now in this moment and then think about, if you did absolutely nothing to change your life financially, what would your life look like in 5 years? Most likely the same or worse.... so why aren't you open to simply hearing about something that could help you change your entire life for the better? because you are scared of failure or success. But those are just fears. Be open to change.

In the face of adversity, do you get bitter or better? 

When you point at others and blame them for your lack of success, you actually have 3 more fingers pointing at you. Life isn't easy but you have to know what you want. Are you trying or are you doing?

How can you have a dream come true if you dont have a dream? Stop shoulding on yourself and stop shoulding on others. What tiny thing are you willing to do or change to reach your dreams? Your mind doesnt know the difference between the truth and a lie - it only believes what you tell it. Think about that for a second and then pay attention to the thoughts you are thinking about yourself.

If there is a problem in your life or in your business, take a good look in the mirror. 

After this weekend, i realized something that is stalling my own business and that is belief in myself and of what I think people think about me. Because of my struggles with my weight, i fear standing up in front of others and presenting, being the center of attention, walking that stage as a diamond, because then i am vulnerable, they will pick me apart, notice all my flaws and its just easier to sit in the background so that doesn't happen. Of course, i know all of this is in my head and my own fears and insecurities but i know that its definetly hindering my personal business - there for i have made a goal for myself to lose 25 lbs before our next conference in San Diego at the end of February and I WILL be walking that stage!  For what rank, you ask? You will just have to wait and see. So here I am, shouting it out here to make myself accountable to whoever is reading this. I am done feeling insecure and embarrassed - feeling like im not worthy of success because of what i look like. A good friend said to me on Sunday, "I dont see what you see about yourself. I see an amazing leader who cares about others"... so my goal is to see that about myself.

As TL once told me, say this over and over again and write it down - I AM DIAMOND IMMEDIATELY OR SOONER!

What is your dream? I would love to hear all of your dreams and help you be accountable to those dreams. We are ALL IN this together!! Lets go make shit happen!! 

25 Things About Me That You May Not Know

I have neglected my blog this year and so i thought i would do a light hearted post with some things that you may not know about me. I have so many thoughts and things that i want to write about, but when i put pen to paper (or fingertip to keys) i either lose the thoughts i want to convey or i worry about if what i am writing will offend, annoy or hurt someone. I know I shouldnt worry about that because these thoughts are MINE but as a people pleaser by nature, its always in the back of my mind. So today I will keep it somewhat light and share some things about myself that you may or may not know about me. Enjoy.... or dont..... its ok either way. :)

1 - I am seriously addicted to hand cream, brushing my teeth and journals/notebooks of any kind. Seriously! I dont even know how many journals i have and they are all for different things - i cant write in just one about everything. 

2 - I'm pretty sure i have a case of mild OCD.

3 - I am often sarcastic which can sometimes cause problems when people don't have a sense of humor.

4 - I struggle with hormone issues and food intolerance's which make it very hard to lose weight which in turn makes me feel very insecure and self conscious about my appearance.

5 - In high school, i was very shy and insecure. 

6 - I am still shy and sometimes insecure - and it can often come across that i am snobby or bitchy - but its not. I am most likely having anxiety if there are lots of people or i just dont know what to say. Im also not good with small talk.

7 - I could sit on the beach all day every day.... If you dont know this about me then you must be living under a rock. haha

8 - I love to take pictures and i am pretty sure I have at least one picture of everyone i have ever met.


9 - If i had never met Brent, i would definetly be married to Adam Levine.... What? It could totally happen. Stop laughing.

10 - I can tell if anything has been moved in my house - even an inch. Its annoying... and why i think I have mild OCD.

11 - I don't like loud noises of any kind. If you ever read the book, The Highly Sensitive Person, you would totally get it

12 - I don't like being hot....... bury me with an air conditioner! I have a fan blowing in my room all year, even in the winter. 

13 - Pretty sure i lived somewhere tropical in another life. I feel at peace when im surrounded by blue water, palm trees and sunshine. Its like therapy for me.

14 - I love doing laundry - its kind of like shopping... New things every few days to put into your closet.

15 - Speaking of shopping, i love to shop! Well mostly just for clothes! Clothes make me feel good about myself and help with my self esteem.

16 - When I was 32 years old, my first husband passed away due do complications from a heart bacteria, which ended up causing a stroke due to Dr error. Yes, there was a lawsuit.... that is a whole other blog post.

17 - I had a second child at 39 years old - my Dr called it a geriatric pregnancy because of my age. Lovely!

18  - Being pregnant is my very least favorite thing to do... ever... Yes the outcome is a miracle when you hold your baby in your arms but the 9 months leading up to it is pure torture.....I dont trust happy, pregnant people. haha 

19 -  Both of my husbands I met at a bar - not the same bar - and of course 9 years apart - but at the bar,none the less

20 - I met my husband and soul mate, Brent, on July 19, 2003 - my wedding anniversary with my first husband, Rene - a year after he had passed away. Coincidence? I don't think so.

21 - I want to walk the Camino Santiago with Brent one day. I think it would be great therapy and an amazing adventure.

22 - Speaking of therapy - i highly recommend it. I think everyone could use a good cry once in awhile and to get the shit out that they have been holding inside for so long. 

23 - I enjoy a good reality tv show once in awhile. Dont judge - i bet you do too.

24 - I want to write a book - cant decide if it will be fiction or non fiction but one of my dreams is to write one. - stay tuned

25 - La Casa resort is my happy place!! I plan to have a cottage there one day where my family can come to stay and relax.

A Giant Leap Outside My Comfort Zone

Wow, time sure does fly by. Today, February 7, 2015 marks our 2 year anniversary with Nucerity International. Hard to believe its been that long already, considering it seems like yesterday when our good friend, Tamara, sat in our living room, bursting with excitement, sharing this opportunity with us, while I just sat there and thought to myself....."great, she is trying to get us into one of those "things", and i really like her but now I am going to have to avoid her because this is the last thing that I want to do."....Boy, am I glad I took the time to be open minded and listen, even though I was super skeptical. 

Why did we decide to join Tamara that day? The fact that she was super excited and bursting at the seams about this opportunity really got me thinking, and it made us excited too, even though we really didnt know much about it yet, and neither did she as she had just started too. She also said that there was no pressure to join her and that she was running with it regardless of our decision.... That was what got me.... I didnt want to be left behind! So even though we didnt really know much yet, we jumped in with 2 feet because we knew if she was excited, there was a reason.

Looking back now after 2 years, I really realize the gift that Tamara gave to us. If we had continued to be closed minded and not taken the time simply to listen, our life would look alot different. At the time I had been off work (by choice) for 2.5 years but was having to start to look for work as it was getting tougher to keep up with the bills on only one income as well as running our fitness business. The thought of going back to work after not working for that long, scared the hell out of me. Not to mention it was not something I had any desire to do. Not because i am lazy, because that is not the case. Its because after being home for so long, being able to make my own schedule, being able to attend my daughters school functions and be home for her when she was done school at the end of the day, being able to plan holidays without worrying about if I could have the time off, etc,  was something that I enjoyed and was grateful for. Going back to work 40 hours a week would take all that away from me and I would be at the mercy of my boss and having to ask for family time when needed. If i had of not been open minded, I would be doing just that right now.... working a J.O.B and trying to fit in quality family time in on the weekends. Not to mention in this economy, your job isnt even secure anymore like it used to be. Companies are closing down every where we look and who knows what company will be next. If I lost my job, I wouldn't have a 2nd stream of income to fall back on. I would have nothing and that would definitely cause a lot of stress. I also wouldn't have been able to raise our son.... he would have grew up in daycare while I was working to pay for that daycare. Now don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with daycare. My daughter went to daycare since she was 6 months old, however, her daycare teachers got to raise her for the most part while I was at work. That wasnt something we wanted for our son. 

Also, at a job, you dont get paid for your efforts. You get told your worth by how much you make an hour. Usually, no matter how hard you work, your pay cheque every 2 weeks is the same. You are trading time for money. I didn't want to do that anymore. We work just hard enough so we dont get fired, and our employer pays us just enough so that we don't quit. I also saw how hard my parents worked their entire lives and for what...... so they could retire with 40% of their income? We didnt want that for ourselves. And my Dad didnt even make it to retirement.... he passed away before he could even enjoy any money from his efforts! Because of losing my first husband when I was only 31, i knew that you arent guaranteed to even be around when its time to retire so then what? All that hard work and your gone. You cant enjoy it with your family and friends because you are no longer here. 


Today, 2 years later, i havent had to go back to a day job. I work 12-14 hours a week which is full time in Nucerity. I choose when I want to work those 12-14 hours, not a boss. And I get paid for my efforts. If I do nothing, I dont get paid. Its as simple as that. This isnt a get rich quick scheme, its work, just like your job is work. You have to work at it. If you stopped going to work, would you get paid? Nope..... Network marketing is no different. People join thinking its a lottery ticket but its not. Its work! That is why it is called NetWORKing..... they join, talk to a few people, get some no's and quit saying its not for them..... This is a Million $ business and we treat it as such. Its a 2-5 year plan. Heck.... if you could be a millionaire in 2-5 years, wouldnt you want to give it an honest go? Those 2-5 years are going to pass by anyways so why not do something on the side, that you can schedule in when its convenient for you and who knows..... You could fire your boss one day. I know many women and men in this company that have done just that in less than 5 years! We want that for us too and we WILL have it, whether you join us or not. 

Now you are probably thinking...... well, I could never do that..... but your wrong. You could! If you believe you can, you can. If you have a burning desire for something more, you will find a way. My burning desire was simply that....... I dont want to work all my life, wishing I could take my family on a vacation, or to grow old with regrets because i worked my whole life trying to earn enough money one day to retire and be with my family. I dont want to stress every month worrying about how I am going to pay the bills and only buying the necessities for groceries because I cant afford to buy the extras.... I wanted more... and now we have that. 

It makes me so sad when my friends post about hating their jobs, losing their jobs, missing their husbands that have to go up north to work for weeks at a time and be away from their families, missing weddings, funerals, special occasions because they cant get time off work and so much more. Yet dont even want to take 30 minutes to listen to something that could change their lives. We used to be those people......the only thing different is that we listened even though we were skeptical. Even though we didnt believe in ourselves. Even though we thought it was just another one of those "things'. There will always be people telling you that you cant do this, that its stupid, that it will never work, but I am here to tell you that it isnt stupid and it DOES work. 

I am grateful to Tamara for believing in us when we didnt  believe in ourselves, and for caring about us enough to want to share this gift with us because that is truly what it is, a gift. I am grateful for the people that we have met that we never would have if we had said no. I am grateful for my personal growth that I have achieved while in this business, because you see, its not about selling to my friends, its about creating a team of people who have a burning desire for something more and helping them succeed. To watch people I care about achieve success, get off disability, pay off their car, take an extra holiday, or fire their boss, it feels so amazing and inspiring. I have done things I never thought I would ever do, like stand up in front of a crowd (small crowd, but still.... thats huge for me) and share my story, Ive gained more confidence and belief in myself, although that will always be a work in progress... lol And I get to work with the best business partner ever.... my husband! 

So i guess I am just sharing this because I am so grateful for this amazing opportunity and for the gifts that it has given me and people that I care about..... Its not meant to solicit you or pressure you to join me because like Tamara told us.... we are running with this no matter what..... It would just be more awesome to do it with the ones i love and care about the most. I cant believe how amazing the past 2 years have been and I cant wait to see what is to come in the next 2 years! And it would be even more amazing to see where your life will be in 2 years from now. Those years are going to pass by anyways.