Punch Fear in the Face

On the eve of the day that I have vowed to get back to taking care of myself, my first day back to the gym in the am,  i sit here trying to talk myself out of it. Not because i dont want to do it, but because of the fear, the little voice in my head telling me that I will fail, that i cant do it, that i will be the biggest one in the class, that everyone will make fun of me..... How ridiculous is that?! The gym is my least favourite place to be. Not because I dont like working out, because i actually do like it....Just not in a crowd of people. I prefer to be in my basement home gym, where noone is around to see my rolls, my flaws, all the things i dont like about myself.... But like I have always said, nothing magical ever happens inside your comfort zone. So my gym bag is packed and im ready to go!!

What is it about us, as humans, that make us want to stay in our bubble, where things are easy, whether it serves us or not? Not just working out but everything in life! We want to lose weight but are scared to take the first step to get healthy. We hate our jobs but are scared to make a change and find something that we love to do. We are in toxic relationships but continue to stay in them for whatever reason. We have friends who dont have our best interests at heart but still give them our energy.... I speak from experience when i say life is short and tomorrow is not guaranteed so do what you love, take that step to a healthier you and find that person who treats you the way you deserve to be treated. 

I just saw this quote from Les Brown and I think its fitting..... 

You have the power to heal your life...to bounce back from failure...to get another job...to open and own your business....to get out of debt...to create a new path for yourself...to stretch beyond what is safe, familiar and comfortable.

You have the power within you...to do more, love more, live more expansively and to learn much more than you do now. Believe and know that you have the power!! You have GREATNESS within you!

January4th is THE day......
2015 was a good year for the most part..... Good times and some struggles... And lots of self sabotage and bad choices.... It's now time to smarten up and fix myself..... Inside and out! 
I won't be drinking alcohol for the month..... To start.... 
I'm going to the gym 3 days a week, at least!
I will be cutting out wheat from my diet as it wreaks havoc on my body.
I will no longer listen to complaining, negativity and gossip. Only positive, I CAN attitudes for me. I can no longer allow that low vibration into my world. (A few mins of venting is ok)😊
I will learn to accept compliments.
I will stop caring what others think of me. What my close friends and family think is all that really matters....
I will live in gratitude.
I will live in love not fear.
I will step outside my comfort zone more as I lose weight and get my confidence back. This year has seen me do alot of that already - speaking in front of rooms full of people and i intend to do even more of that this year - with confidence!
I will work on loving myself.
I will go for coffee with a friend, new or old, at least once a month.
I will not be attached to the outcome and will live in the moment.

What do you vow to do in 2016? I would love to hear your goals and help keep you accountable, if needed. 

Whenever i think i cant do it, i will listen to this song!      https://youtu.be/xo1VInw-SKc❤