Brent, just like myself, had gone thru alot of difficult things in his childhood while growing up and he had alot of commitment issues. Something he never kept from me. He was always honest and would say that he didnt want to hurt me, but it was probably inevitable because he always hurt everyone that he loved. I was thinking... Whoah? What? Loved? Did you just say that? The butterflies started all over again. He had a closed heart from all the hurt and pain in his life but I could see his heart slowly opening up more as time went on. It seemed like suddenly, overnight, he had moved upstairs to my room.... Now I say overnight, but that's obviously not the case... lol I cant remember one exact moment where it just happened, but it did and it was great. We still weren't telling anyone.... not because we didn't want anyone to know, but because our relationship didn't really seem any different.. the only thing that was different was where he chose to sleep now. That's how comfortable our relationship truly was.
I worked at a real estate company and so one night we were talking about houses and such and we just started talking about whether we should go look at houses, then suddenly, we WERE looking, and then wham, we moved into our new house and were a family! It felt so great to feel happy again but was sad to be leaving a house that had so many memories, good and sad. It was a fresh start for the 3 of us, but was difficult at the same time. I felt like I was saying goodbye to Rene all over again and it was just so heartbreaking. We had planted a tree in the front yard, at his Celebration of Life, and I felt like, because we were leaving it behind, we were also leaving a part of Rene behind. I always wished that I had of brought it with us and planted it at our new house, for both myself and for Taylor. But i know its just a tree... Rene will always be with us whether we had brought the tree with us or not. To this day, when I drive past our old house, i look at that tree in the front yard and smile.
Brent had left his job of 11 years for something new and different. He worked regular 9-5 hours now instead of 12 hour days, 6-7 days a week so we thought, hey, we should take Taylor to Disneyland!! So we did!! We were going thru customs on the way to LA and Brent was acting all wierd and kept watching the carry on bags as they went thru the monitor. I thought it was sort of odd, but didnt think too much about it. Then the guy asked if he could go thru my purse so i said sure. I didnt have anything to hide. Brent looked a bit worried and was still acting funny and he went up to one of the other baggage handlers and said something to him. The guy smiled and said something back to him and then Brent came back over to me. I asked him what he was doing and he said he just asked why they were going thru my purse and the guy told him not to worry, and that it was routine. I was to find out later that this wasn't true.
Neither one of us had ever been to Disneyland so it was such a fun experience for all 3 of us together. The first day there was so magical and fun and i couldn't think of a more fun day ever! After Taylor had gone to bed, we were sitting on the bed having a glass of wine, when I turned to Brent and said just that...... "This day could NOT get any better than this"........ Brent looked at me and said, "yes i bet it could"...... he told me to close my eyes and wait right there. I had no idea what was happening. A few minutes later he came back and told me to open my eyes.... I didnt see him for a second and then realized he was on the floor, down on one knee, holding a box open in his hand, with a beautiful ring inside! WHAT?! I cant believe this is happening and how the heck did he manage to get that ring into this hotel room without me knowing?.... I was over come with joy and tears as Brent asked me if I would spend the rest of my life with him..... i was speechless... Brent said, "please say something..." LOL Oh my goodness, OF COURSE I will! YES!!!!
Its true what they say...... Disneyland really is the Happiest Place on Earth!!
This song was the one they played every night during the fireworks and we had it as one of our wedding songs. Makes me smile every time I hear it.
Once the shock wore off, he told me the story of how he had hid my engagement ring in my OWN purse and that's why he was freaking out at the airport. He was worried the baggage guy was going to go thru my purse and pull it out and ruin the surprise. HAHA
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